"I admire so many people and sometimes I just forget to admire myself, the person I have become after years of suffering. Having overcome many obstacles at such a young age, I have become aware of my luck and I am grateful to be where I am right now, instead of standing on that bridge that was about to fall a couple of years ago.

I thank life everyday because I made mistakes. Because I realized I was wrong. My god, I was so blind… And I believe it happened for a reason. That it was an emergency call from my soul, warning me I couldn’t take life like that anymore. It asked for change. And I decided I had to wake up and pick up the phone: pick up the phone and speak clear to myself. I decided to take care of my mind and my body, slowly recovering from the toxic mindset I made myself live in.

Listen, choose to be your best friend instead of your worst enemy. Don’t try to be perfect, because I did and it broke me into a million pieces. Now I don’t expect me to be perfect. And I can only tell you I’m much happier and healthier this way. It has been tough to realize that’s what truly matters. And I’m proud and grateful for what I have been able to accomplish. That is admiration for me.

Now I’m asking you to look for it. If you can’t admire yourself right now, make your way to a better self and don’t stop until you’re proud."

"I know on most days I spit fireballs from my mouth and hurt you for no reason. 
I know you shouldn’t have to endure this pain, you don’t deserve this, you deserve better.
And that I should let you go.
But if I do, I am scared that I’ll never find anybody who will love me like you did, I won’t find anybody who will love me at all.
I know I am crazy and nobody else will quite accept it like you.
I know I am wrong, but you never said it."

"When you wake up and smile, and you feel brave, ready to take on every challenge and meet all your goals, the universe will reward you. Capable minds achieve everything they want as they never for one second doubt what they can do. Be that person. Be the one who believes in themselves, the one who will face any challenge with a open mind, the person who has their eyes locked on the goal and knows they will get there. Be brave enough to succeed."

"Fall in love with someone who looks for the good in you when you are surrounded by the dark clouds of anxiety and depression."

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It’s the reason she hasn’t tasted a drop of alcohol in her entire life.

It’s the reason she has always held her breath around cigarette smoke.

It’s the reason she has to repeat the same morning routine every day.

It’s the reason she cannot bring herself to fall out of love with you.

It’s her addictive personality. And even though she tried so hard to stay away from drugs because she knew how easily she’d be attached, she didn’t realize that you were the most intoxicating drug of all.

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